Assuming that's true, you should probably come out to your wife and give her the option to leave. Seeing as you signed up to become Uncle Sam's property, you should understand long term commitments and exercise the same discipline in your marriage. If you ever loved your wife and she means more to you than sexual gratification, you owe it to her to be honest.
I'm a marine and married to a female but think I might be gay and really want to try it deep in side my tight virgin hole to find out if I might actually be gay and want to be filled up with lots of cum and if it means I will be gay after words so be it